Poor Self-Esteem

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Now is Today

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The third in my trio (triad? trilogy?) of bad thoughts or beliefs which damage me. This would be damaged as in the past, plus damage as in current. The future is still a question mark.

I had called fear and sloth the dynamic duo, but upon consideration I decided that there was actually a trio made up of fear, sloth, and poor self-esteem. Or possibly poor self-esteem is the leader of the group with fear and sloth being just hench-feelings.

Now poor might be too gentle of a word. Terrible or horrible or disastrous would be much more accurate and descriptive.

Also, I question which came first, poor self-esteem or fear and sloth. Did poor self-esteem lead to fear and sloth? Did fear and sloth lead to poor self-esteem? Was it a different combination? Or did they all just appear together?

For fear is a natural human condition to help…

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Laugh As Much As You Can

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Yuhakko

I’ve always been someone who laughs a lot. It’s not that I force myself, it’s just that I have been brought up this way by my parents. My parents always loved to make fun of one other lightly and my father, for the longest time, has been making the stupidest dad jokes and word plays.

This grew on me and despite the fact that stupid jokes are usually looked down upon, I have kept on doing them. To this day, my favorite joke is the below foolish one:

“It’s a guy who comes into a bar and says:
‘Hey! It’s me!’
Everybody turns around… and it wasn’t him.”

Now, the reaction to this one is usually either a puzzled face due to a lack of understanding or a nice laugh. No matter the reaction, this always makes me laughs and be proud of myself for saying it.

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Inward Joy, Outward Expression

Happiness, Joy

Still Finding God

My sister came to Mass with us today. The parish was welcoming those who are coming into the church. The group consisted of people from young children to older adults. They were very serious as they recited their words. I’m sure they were nervous being up in front of everyone. As they processed out together, most of them still had on their serious face. However, one man was just beaming. My sister pointed him out and said how she loved his smile. He was in fact smiling from ear to ear. He was so joyful inside that it radiate in his expression. It made us smile probably others as well.

I Found God today in a beautiful expression of joy.

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Flowing Not Forcing

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Of Undisputed Origin

Today is the day I let go.  I let go and for damn good reason. I let go of attaching myself to what I think I need and want. This is true freedom.

I have no control over when my last breath will be, so if I cannot control something as essential as my breath, which keeps me alive, who is to say I can control anything else.

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The only thing between me and death is my breath. I don’t want to catch my breath, I want to slow it down and let it anchor me into this moment, where I remain at peace and with the pace of this universe.

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Recommended Reading

Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life – Living the Wisdom of the Tao by Dr. Wayne Dyer

The Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu

The Tao Te Ching is a series of meditations on the mysterious nature…

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You Have Time to Ground Yourself

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Live/Work/PTSD

I get overwhelmed somewhat easily.

When I do, it’s hard to un-overwhelm myself. I know there are a lot of techniques to do it, but it’s still hard to calm the waves of anxiety.

I practiced yoga every day for a month, and so far this month have done it once, and just a quick video to work on my hands and wrists. I sat in my desk chair and checked my watch every couple of minutes.

What I learned from that month is how important it is for my well being to do yoga every day.

Now that I’m not, I want to go back to that daily practice. It feels like all hell has broken loose since I stopped, and it has, but I also cope with stress and anxiety better with a daily yoga practice.

That said, I’ve been going nonstop since last Friday when I almost…

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Nostalgia and City Lights

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Gwen Eleanor

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Back in college, specifically my last year in, I used to live in a dormitory near the university where I was studying. I would roam around the streets of Balanga City whenever I needed some fresh (or rather, slightly-polluted)air to take a break. I preferred having no roommates so I could focus on studying, but it eventually got lonely especially during those days when I have nothing to do. So out I go.

My mother was very strict when I was in high school and would not permit me to go out of the house if it’s not school- or church-related. You see, I am an only child, and a girl at that. I’d tell all kinds of excuses just to get permission to hang out with my friends, who were also my classmates. So when I went to college, it felt so thrilling and liberating to be able…

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