I feel a compulsive need to be “good” and think only good thoughts, say only good words, and take only good action. And any time something goes poorly in my life, I tell myself I wasn’t good enough and I must have manifested it with some sort of negative thinking, and I must do better.
Confidence, gurus, self-esteem, success
We’ve all seen self-improvement articles here and there, haven’t we? They’re usually associated with some handsome/pretty looking guru with a nice, mansion-owning smile. They often talk about being productive and assure us that meditation and a solid morning routine are so frickin’ important. Now, I could trash talk this type of person all day, and I’ve already made one post about them. However, today I want to primarily focus on a single question, and it’s right in the title: Is being confident really the key to success?
To me the answer seems to be mixed. Being confident probably won’t hurt you, but it’s more important to simply have the right connections. To do that, you actually don’t want to seem overly confident to people, because they’ll (probably rightly) assume you’re a stupid, endlessly self-praising asshole. However, it is true that cocky, confident people can get ahead in this world, so…
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Hope September is bringing you happiness and peace. The full moon is creating some chaos I think. If – like myself – you are feeling frantic as hell then perhaps it’s because your inner wolf can feel the gravitational pull of that gal in the night sky. Get out there and howl. And if you think ‘George the full moon is a load of bollocks’ fair play, howl anyway it’ll make you feel fierce. We are 2/3 water after all, tides are being turned. I for one feel mentally annihilated, wahooo what a time to be alive!!!
Fuckin hold onto anything not tied down cos I have a feeling it’s going to be a bumpy one…
So the other day I was just sat having a lil check in with Georgia Taylor, haven’t had one of those in a while… self love/ self worth, and self care and…
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depression , mentalhealth , selfcompassion , shame
This week, I’d like to continue to write honestly about how I haven’t been feeling the greatest. Part of me feels a little bit annoying and pitiful, but another part of me is screaming screw it! I started this blog to be transparent and honest, and to focus on mental health. And the honest truth is that life’s journey is full of ups and downs, and I will be damned if I have to hide the parts of my life that aren’t sunshine and rainbows.
As someone who is predisposed to depression, I have slowly started to realize (and am striving to accept) that I will always have a tendency to be pulled downward into the spiral of depression. Especially when life throws curve balls – and let’s face it: life is full of those!
I have a tendency to feel ashamed of my emotions, which often pushes me to…
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Health and Wellbeing, Lifestyle
Graduation. The conclusion to three years of essays, exams, deadlines and sleepless nights. The moment you remember the entire reason you ever went to university- to get a degree. Student life is usually filled with a manic social life, work-life and the odd party or two.
The aftermath can be a bit of a come-down. There is a sudden pressure to find a stable job, decide on a career or jet off to somewhere exotic in the hope of ‘finding yourself’.
However, what people don’t talk about is the in-between period, where you feel like a drifter, biding your time until an opportunity comes along. It can be lonely and depressing. Particularly filling out the endless CV’s, Cover letters and job applications over and over again, scrolling through LinkedIn and Indeed, only to receive a ‘sorry your application was not successful’ email. It can, for want of a better word…
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motherhood , lifestyle , motherhood blog , lifestyle blog , boy mom , working mama , mama , personal blog , friendships , friend , love
One of the harshest realities I have learned lately is to not expect other people to do what you would do for them. It’s an easy philosophy to understand on the surface but when it comes down to the roots of what it really means, for me it’s led to a lot of heartache. Isn’t that a thing also? Expectation is the root of all heartache?
I have found that just because you have a big heart doesn’t mean everyone else does. You can spent your time doing things that are meaningful and worthwhile to you and there will still be people who don’t understand your motivation.
Just because you love someone’s child a certain way doesn’t mean they will love yours the same. For some people it is not all about snuggles and hugs and kisses and spending time together; some people are not impacted by your child’s pretense…
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Career, Family, Lifestyle
I am always reading. I typically read a few books at a time, usually three to four, all about different topics and one of the ones that I’m reading right now is Girl, Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis. I read this excerpt and it just hit me so hard that I haven’t stopped thinking about it.
“I was raised with a voice of authority that was male. My daddy is a strong and very forceful personality, and he demanded total obedience. I learned to live in hope of his approval and terrified of his displeasure. Then I met my husband when I was nineteen years old, and though he is a very different kind of man, I can recognize in retrospect that I transferred my feelings about my father to my husband. I was utterly codependent. I lived every day to please him and make him happy, and if…
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active , gray , narcissism , narcissist , narcissistic abuse , passive , recovery , relationships , toxic people
Going gray is considered the best, perhaps only way, to deal with narcissists and other toxic people. This is easy if you are completely breaking ties with someone you can walk away from. But what about the people in your life you can’t escape?
Two summers ago I had a major altercation with my parents. We had not talked for months, and I was surprised when they asked to take me out to dinner.
The evening was fine. We discussed frivolous topics. Any time the conversation steered towards anything sensitive, I changed the subject. It was hard work for me. This is the part of “going gray” I did not understand – going gray is not a passive endeavor, it is an active technique.
I was exhausted by the end of the evening. As we left the restaurant my dad suggested we discuss what had happened over the summer. I…
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Emotions, fixing people, Freedom, Love, Relationship, vulnerability
We can’t fix other people. We’d love to, I know. We’d solve all the world’s problems if we could just make them do things our way. Right?
However, it’s becoming common knowledge today that you can’t fix other people. Not because they’re broken and hopeless, but because you’re not them and you don’t share the same operating system. It’s not as much an issue as we can’t, but we shouldn’t.
But…because other people impact our lives, we try.
I can attest because I’m a person who seems to need fixing. I lead a pretty unconventional life as a writer. I make choices that serve my craft, not the social norm and that sometimes gets me in sticky spots. On top of that, I’m introspective and sensitive. I tend to be pretty open and vulnerable these days. If I’m feeling challenged or surprised by something, I’ll probably share and that often…
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life , inspiration , fitness , fitness motivation , love , fitness journey , love yourself , choose yourself first
“You haven’t been yourself in about 2-3
years” is what my mom said to me a year ago. We were
having a conversation about possible depression and seeing my doctor to get on
an antidepressant. I didn’t have health insurance at the time, so we were
trying to figure out how I was going to pay for the doctor visit, as well as
the medication. I was a mess, my mental health was a mess.
I had just started a job that I thought was my “big break” I was looking for to get my career off the ground. I was trying to convince myself that I enjoyed this job, but I really didn’t. I hated it and wasn’t good at it, at all. I would pack a gym bag to go to the gym right after work, but would talk myself out of actually going because I was “too…
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