I am not where I thought I would be in my life

Keywords: anxiety , books , crisis help , depression , frogger , goodreads , help , helplines , mental health , ptsd , reaching out , suicide prevention

While I LOVE,LOVE,LOVE my books, I love my child: I thought that by now that I would not be where I am but in a better space. I could be in a worse one but I do not feel like I am where I should be. I absolutely love my kid and would do anything for them( I only have one but I feel like using this identifier for the moment).

https://ravinscarface.wordpress.com/2021/07/05/reaching-out

Sometimes I ask that same question and wonder why life couldn’t have gone differently… couldn’t have been a bit smoother

Keywords: health , heartache , intro , mental health , worth it

As someone with a sleep disorder and a mood disorder I relate to the need for a nap and a snack to calm me down most of the time. Haha! So out of this simple Bible story and my own life story Nap and a Snack was born.

https://napandasnack.com/2021/06/06/when-life-gives-you-lemons-start-a-blog

When it comes to ourselves we set a higher standard for ourselves and tend to be much more unforgiving and harsh

Keywords: love , life , self love , discipline , emotional health , hate , empathy , feelings , trauma , self hate

The scared and sad little boy still exists as my inner child. I need to become the nurturing and loving parent that my inner child needs. The kind of parent I needed when I was younger. I need to listen to what my inner child is telling me. I need to give it the love and support it needs to feel safe. I need to be there for my inner child. I will be writing more about this as I learn more about my inner child.

https://lemindvomit.com/2020/07/22/brewing-in-self-hate

I didn’t choose the introvert life, it chose me!

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Pencil Thoughts

Hey everyone,

Lately, I have been thinking about that funny old thing we call life and all the fun stuff that comes with it. You know what I mean, the heartache, the love, the pain, the laughter, the memories and all the bits in between.

I have been thinking about how introverted I have become and the effect that has had on my life and this is what I wrote:

I drown myself in words and pencils, drawing and writing about my emotions in the hope I don’t have to feel them anymore. I say fuck you to the world around for not accepting me at the same time knowing I have struggled to accept myself also. I am so embedded in my shell, where it is comfortable but lonely as there is only room for one.
Over time the layers have slowly become undone. The layers of shame, anger…

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Good, Better, Best Perfectionism

I feel a compulsive need to be “good” and think only good thoughts, say only good words, and take only good action. And any time something goes poorly in my life, I tell myself I wasn’t good enough and I must have manifested it with some sort of negative thinking, and I must do better.

https://jenniferannbutler.com/2019/10/24/i-sure-hope-my-head-falls-off-and-other-negative-things-that-wont-come-true-just-because-im-saying-them-aloud-or-visualizing-them

We all do stupid shit.

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Pencil Thoughts

Hey everyone,

Did I ever tell you that about the time I was in such a rush to get home because I felt like anxiety was closing the world in around me, that I walked up to the wrong house and was trying to open the door with my key for a good few minutes. I can laugh about it now because I must have looked like an idiot cursing at a door that didn’t belong to me ( thank god no one was home). I remember finally realising that I was telling the wrong door to ” fucking open you piece of shit”, I felt like anxiety was going to swallow me whole. I was only one house along, and as soon as I closed my front door, I cried my eyes out. Was I crying over the original anxiety or the new anxiety from trying to get into…

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My Fitness Journey | Choosing Yourself First

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Blissfully jess

“You haven’t been yourself in about 2-3
years”
is what my mom said to me a year ago. We were
having a conversation about possible depression and seeing my doctor to get on
an antidepressant. I didn’t have health insurance at the time, so we were
trying to figure out how I was going to pay for the doctor visit, as well as
the medication. I was a mess, my mental health was a mess.

I had just started a job that I thought was my “big break” I was looking for to get my career off the ground. I was trying to convince myself that I enjoyed this job, but I really didn’t. I hated it and wasn’t good at it, at all. I would pack a gym bag to go to the gym right after work, but would talk myself out of actually going because I was “too…

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Lack of Self Esteem

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Be Inspired..!!

In reality, low self-esteem affects more people than you think. Low self-esteem refers to how you feel about yourself overall. Comparing, gossiping about others, putting others first, even excessive Facebooking are all signs of low-self esteem. You may say you do these things to stay connected or because “I want to”. The truth is when one is content with themselves, they have healthy self-esteem; external validation is simply an additive, not a necessity to their lives. A person with healthy self-esteem spends the bulk of their time doing things that promote positivity within themselves and exude this in life.

Here are some typical habits which show low self esteem :

  • Saying “yes” to everything.
  • Negative self-talk or self-criticism.
  • Back down when opinions are challenged by others.
  • Being indecisive with simple decisions.
  • Fearing failure.
  • Taking constructive criticism personally.
  • Sweating the small stuff.
  • Afraid to share your opinions in a conversation.
  • Giving…

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I need a little help to get by

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A Moment In My Mind

I don’t ask for help. I am just learning to ask for information I need for work or other things I may need answers too. This week of the flu and the revelations that lying in bed have provided has shown me that I need to ask for help, assistance and then receive it when it comes.

I need to look for more help, professional help to assist me understand what way next for me and what steps I need to get there. If I’m honest with myself the thought of progressing, changing and transforming my life scares me. Can you imagine having the life you’ve always wanted? Petrifying right?

So what is one of the main things that you know if you addressed it that would mean the ending and beginning of everything????

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