Keywords: main blog , my life and perspectives , website updates and news , disappointment , gratitude , insecurity , pep talk , residency
On a brighter note, I am fortunate that even on my toughest days, when my personal shortcomings are highlighted and compounded with the grief of losing my Mom and a beloved pet cat in the same year, even with a world shadowed by a new pandemic and economic crisis, in a country that is more polarized than ever, surrounded by a population that seems to relish in the despair of others, even in these times, I maintain gratitude for the privilege I was born into, the arguably indefensible comfort that I live in, the consciousness that I’ve woken up into, and the evolutionarily advantageous spark of hope that I kindle and protect as best I can. I love the people I work with and am privileged to have the opportunity to listen to people and connect with them in a time of need.https://atlasblackcoffee.wordpress.com/2020/07/17/a-tough-day
Keywords: bipolar disorder , change , emotions , introspection , life
Sometimes I want to be sweet, sometimes I want to have claws. And yet sometimes I wish to feel nothing at all. I go back and forth on how to present myself to the world, or whoever I come across in real life or by internet, but it is hard. It is hard because I have Bipolar Disorder which I do take medicine for, but one moment I could feel vindicated by my wrath and after some time, I can feel remorse for having such sharp tongue or words. I have been like this for as long as I can remember, even before my diagnosis.http://sarahmixup.com/2020/06/16/with-the-wind
Keywords: Addiction, Depression, Grief, Healing, Spirituality
I saw your resignation—your “I don’t need anything or anyone” energy evaporate, and I saw all those folks who are in your intimate orbit stunned by the miracle of you, and overjoyed at having the chance to get to know the you they never met.
Give yourself permission to lean fully into the feeling and be patient while the intensity swells and then starts to fade. Riding this wave of emotion allows your whole body to embrace the feeling completely and then let go. Each time the feeling surfaces, you ride the wave, and the wave crest becomes more and more manageable. This brings you in more control of your feelings and it leaves less baggage hanging onto your soul.