Month: June 2020

I am getting out of pause and back on track

Keywords: bipolar disorder , change , emotions , introspection , life

Sometimes I want to be sweet, sometimes I want to have claws. And yet sometimes I wish to feel nothing at all. I go back and forth on how to present myself to the world, or whoever I come across in real life or by internet, but it is hard. It is hard because I have Bipolar Disorder which I do take medicine for, but one moment I could feel vindicated by my wrath and after some time, I can feel remorse for having such sharp tongue or words. I have been like this for as long as I can remember, even before my diagnosis.

http://sarahmixup.com/2020/06/16/with-the-wind

What you learn about yourself can be overwhelming

Keywords: rants , codependency , fear , meditation , mindfulness , narcissism , psychology , rant , ryan watts , sam harris , self awareness , self improvement , who are we

Connection happens in the messiness of life. Tell others how you feel, share. At the end of it all, the most important things in our lives will be the personal relationships.

Wouldn’t it be great if we felt like we were able to be our open, authentic and real selves?

https://thewhoarewepodcast.wpcomstaging.com/2020/06/16/mindfulness-sucks-well-its-just-that-the-self-awareness-gained-is-difficult-to-come-to-terms-with

I sat stone-faced as he told me I had expressed this unfelt feeling, which he assessed as being categorically inappropriate

Keywords: updates , abuse , alone , ashamed , brokenness , damage , depression , emptiness , hopelessness , isolation , pain , rejection , shame

I sat, unspeaking, as he reproached me for being emotional, though, at least in this instance, is was not true.  And it felt as if he had driven a dagger deep into my heart.

https://rbird007.wordpress.com/2020/06/04/shamed