Diving to the deepest imagination I may have again. Does loneliness is really a choice? Isn’t it weird that someone is happy being alone? Is that a thing? Is it real?https://ffimaxity.wordpress.com/2020/06/18/dont-you-feel-alone-most-of-the-time-because-i-am
be your own boss , motivation , real talk
I was not popular in school, and I was definitely not a ladies’ man. And I had a very painful adolescence, because it was all very strange to me. It wasn’t like I got beat up, but the humiliation and isolation, and the existential ‘God, I exist, and nobody cares’ of being a teenager were extremely pronounced for me.
There’s a magic trick I’ve recently picked up and it has proven successful in killing completely my desire to chase girls. Whenever I see a girl I’m attracted to and the desire to get her comes, I remember the times I’ve failed with all the girls I’ve had a crush on and it snaps me back to reality.
In other words I have quit the game on chasing women and focused more on improving myself. Chasing women will only chase them right out of one’s life. Men who are…
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anxiety , aspergers syndrome , attachment theory , depression , loneliness
freedom , people , featured , realtionships , happiness , psychology , philosophy , loneliness
friendship, happiness, lonliness, self love
In an effort to build a list for my 21st birthday celebration I sat down to jot down a list of people to invite. I came up with four people, two of which had other plans. “Why don’t I have any friends?” I thought to myself. At first I got very sad and decided that something must be wrong with me. Then I realized these things,
- I don’t have friends because I make myself too busy to maintain emotional depth in my social life
- I do not reach out to friends I once had because I don’t like to go out
- I am terrible at keeping in contact with people
- I have anxiety about my future and I have decided that every second that I’m relaxing is a nail in the coffin on my socioeconomic growth
- I’m not very fun
I’ve decided that these five points are the reason I…
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abandonment, anger, C-PTSD, CPTSD, depression, disconnected, Loneliness, mental health, mental illness, PTSD
A realization came to me in mid-December. Someone I was close to, had spoken to almost every day for a year and a half, began ignoring me. It was easy to notice. I stepped away from all social media not wanting to be reminded that I’m being ignored. Maybe I said something that bothered this person. I apologized the next day, but they never responded. The realization I had, no one outside of work contacted me for almost a week. No one. Apparently, this person was my only friend. I told a coworker my situation and they helped me put things in perspective.
I moved from depressed to angry. I didn’t know the situation, but I felt used. I’ve had enough people ditch me because I didn’t give them what they wanted anymore. This felt like the same thing. So, I sent a message three days after my apology message…
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