Category: essay

I am proud that I do not have friendships which are toxic

Keywords: guest posts , anxiety , depression , emetophobia , isha thorve , loneliness , mental health , no friends , psychiatrist , psychology , therapist

I spent two years of my degree college without any friends. I lost all the friends I made and I was trying to be comfortable in my own company. That surely doesn’t mean I don’t like people or having friends. I do like hanging out with people and connecting with people. But when it comes to being friends or having friends I always felt alone. For those two years I had no friends and looking back now, I realize I never really had any friends. My friends kept changing over the time or situations. I never had any constant people in my life.

https://growingcaterpillar630459409.wordpress.com/2020/07/24/i-am-alone-and-i-am-proud-of-that

When it comes to ourselves we set a higher standard for ourselves and tend to be much more unforgiving and harsh

Keywords: love , life , self love , discipline , emotional health , hate , empathy , feelings , trauma , self hate

The scared and sad little boy still exists as my inner child. I need to become the nurturing and loving parent that my inner child needs. The kind of parent I needed when I was younger. I need to listen to what my inner child is telling me. I need to give it the love and support it needs to feel safe. I need to be there for my inner child. I will be writing more about this as I learn more about my inner child.

https://lemindvomit.com/2020/07/22/brewing-in-self-hate

I understand that this is a learning process, but on these days I feel that I’ve let people down — it feels bad

Keywords: main blog , my life and perspectives , website updates and news , disappointment , gratitude , insecurity , pep talk , residency

On a brighter note, I am fortunate that even on my toughest days, when my personal shortcomings are highlighted and compounded with the grief of losing my Mom and a beloved pet cat in the same year, even with a world shadowed by a new pandemic and economic crisis, in a country that is more polarized than ever, surrounded by a population that seems to relish in the despair of others, even in these times, I maintain gratitude for the privilege I was born into, the arguably indefensible comfort that I live in, the consciousness that I’ve woken up into, and the evolutionarily advantageous spark of hope that I kindle and protect as best I can. I love the people I work with and am privileged to have the opportunity to listen to people and connect with them in a time of need.

https://atlasblackcoffee.wordpress.com/2020/07/17/a-tough-day

Being hopeful can be an extremely difficult thing to do

Keywords: anxiety , depression , help , hope , trauma

I’m currently unemployed. A ton of my bills and my rent are late. My phone bill is on a payment arrangement and I’m worried I won’t be able to pay it because I don’t have any income. However, during this time I’ve been unemployed, I got set up with a therapist. It was hard saying goodbye to my last therapist. She was really great. My new therapist specializes in trauma and separation, depression and anxiety. She’s a good fit for me and I’m looking forward to the work we will do together. I also got set up with WIC, and an EBT card. I wasn’t able to get unemployment insurance due to not living in this state long enough, but I may be able to apply for Minnesota. I have hope because when I ask for help, there are people and resources out there for me.

https://mamadiaries.net/2020/07/07/why-i-still-have-hope

You have to be able to treat yourself like someone that you love

Keywords: happiness, life, lockdown, love yourself, self love

I have spent so long criticising myself telling myself that I don’t make my family proud because of my mistakes and that no one truly loves me because they all just feel sorry for me so they stick around. I often fail to forgive myself for the mistakes I make (even though its only part of being human). I’ve spent so much time stood in the mirror in my underwear just staring at myself and my body picking apart every single thing I dislike about myself like my thighs being too big, my tummy getting rolls when I sit down and leaving lines when I sit for too long, the fat on my back, the fact I have no triceps, the way my hair falls naturally honestly the list goes on and even though everyone would tell me there’s nothing wrong with me id still see it no matter what anyone said.

https://cerysallen.wordpress.com/2020/07/04/learning-to-love-myself

Spending most of my time alone and investing into hobbies that made me happy helped me stop over-planning for a future I ultimately can’t control

Keywords: brownsville , college , diversity , education , grades , mindfulness , nyc , philosophy , public school , travel , university

Being completely alone made me more mindful of how I was spending my time day to day, so I chose to explore my interests instead of ruminating over what my life should look like even a year from now. I found a healthy balance between living in the moment and planning. I chose to focus more on short-term plans rather than long-term. I continued to set goals, but let go of expectations and worry. I got comfortable with not knowing and changing direction. I decided that I want to be as present as possible because I love life too much to live in the past or the future. I just want to make sure I’m content in this moment. And I trust myself. I trust that I’ll figure it out as long as I’m learning about myself and choosing happiness everyday.

https://gsmry.blog/2020/06/26/its-not-that-serious

I am getting out of pause and back on track

Keywords: bipolar disorder , change , emotions , introspection , life

Sometimes I want to be sweet, sometimes I want to have claws. And yet sometimes I wish to feel nothing at all. I go back and forth on how to present myself to the world, or whoever I come across in real life or by internet, but it is hard. It is hard because I have Bipolar Disorder which I do take medicine for, but one moment I could feel vindicated by my wrath and after some time, I can feel remorse for having such sharp tongue or words. I have been like this for as long as I can remember, even before my diagnosis.

http://sarahmixup.com/2020/06/16/with-the-wind

What you learn about yourself can be overwhelming

Keywords: rants , codependency , fear , meditation , mindfulness , narcissism , psychology , rant , ryan watts , sam harris , self awareness , self improvement , who are we

Connection happens in the messiness of life. Tell others how you feel, share. At the end of it all, the most important things in our lives will be the personal relationships.

Wouldn’t it be great if we felt like we were able to be our open, authentic and real selves?

https://thewhoarewepodcast.wpcomstaging.com/2020/06/16/mindfulness-sucks-well-its-just-that-the-self-awareness-gained-is-difficult-to-come-to-terms-with