I feel a compulsive need to be “good” and think only good thoughts, say only good words, and take only good action. And any time something goes poorly in my life, I tell myself I wasn’t good enough and I must have manifested it with some sort of negative thinking, and I must do better.
Tag: life
We all do stupid shit.
adulthood, adulting, anxiety, bipolar, depression, life, mental health, mental illness, recovery
Hey everyone,
Did I ever tell you that about the time I was in such a rush to get home because I felt like anxiety was closing the world in around me, that I walked up to the wrong house and was trying to open the door with my key for a good few minutes. I can laugh about it now because I must have looked like an idiot cursing at a door that didn’t belong to me ( thank god no one was home). I remember finally realising that I was telling the wrong door to ” fucking open you piece of shit”, I felt like anxiety was going to swallow me whole. I was only one house along, and as soon as I closed my front door, I cried my eyes out. Was I crying over the original anxiety or the new anxiety from trying to get into…
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My Fitness Journey | Choosing Yourself First
life , inspiration , fitness , fitness motivation , love , fitness journey , love yourself , choose yourself first
“You haven’t been yourself in about 2-3
years” is what my mom said to me a year ago. We were
having a conversation about possible depression and seeing my doctor to get on
an antidepressant. I didn’t have health insurance at the time, so we were
trying to figure out how I was going to pay for the doctor visit, as well as
the medication. I was a mess, my mental health was a mess.
I had just started a job that I thought was my “big break” I was looking for to get my career off the ground. I was trying to convince myself that I enjoyed this job, but I really didn’t. I hated it and wasn’t good at it, at all. I would pack a gym bag to go to the gym right after work, but would talk myself out of actually going because I was “too…
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Lack of Self Esteem
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In reality, low self-esteem affects more people than you think. Low self-esteem refers to how you feel about yourself overall. Comparing, gossiping about others, putting others first, even excessive Facebooking are all signs of low-self esteem. You may say you do these things to stay connected or because “I want to”. The truth is when one is content with themselves, they have healthy self-esteem; external validation is simply an additive, not a necessity to their lives. A person with healthy self-esteem spends the bulk of their time doing things that promote positivity within themselves and exude this in life.
Here are some typical habits which show low self esteem :
- Saying “yes” to everything.
- Negative self-talk or self-criticism.
- Back down when opinions are challenged by others.
- Being indecisive with simple decisions.
- Fearing failure.
- Taking constructive criticism personally.
- Sweating the small stuff.
- Afraid to share your opinions in a conversation.
- Giving…
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I need a little help to get by
adjust, assistance, challenges, change, difficulties, guidance, happiness, Help, Life, transformation
I don’t ask for help. I am just learning to ask for information I need for work or other things I may need answers too. This week of the flu and the revelations that lying in bed have provided has shown me that I need to ask for help, assistance and then receive it when it comes.
I need to look for more help, professional help to assist me understand what way next for me and what steps I need to get there. If I’m honest with myself the thought of progressing, changing and transforming my life scares me. Can you imagine having the life you’ve always wanted? Petrifying right?
So what is one of the main things that you know if you addressed it that would mean the ending and beginning of everything????
Do you know what you are committed too?
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Learning how to look up instead of always looking down
20s , finding yourself , happiness , life , love , love yourself , off the grid , self help , social media
It’s true when they say, you can’t love anyone else until you truly love yourself. You’re probably reading this saying, “isn’t this the girl who had previously wrote a blog about self love?” Yes, I am. The thing is I truly thought I loved myself. Sure, I had went through a lot of life lessons that made me rise above and learn to take care of myself but I didn’t try to love myself for the right reasons. I made myself believe I loved myself so other people would think I did to.
It’s 2019. Social media rules the world. Even our parents AND grandparents have a Facebook. Being a millennial (I’m not saying anything bad about millennials, millennial activists) I grew up in the age of MySpace. Since middle school, I had learned how cyberspace can literally define friendships, life events, relationship status, etc. Its…
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Live for you, not for others
advice , being happy , disappointment , finding yourself , happiness , life , living , living for you , self discovery , taking control
Get your cup of coffee in hand, it’s story time. I’ve lived a very complex life, not hard but also not a bed of roses. All my life I’ve been the “perfect kid”. I’m 23 by the way. I don’t party, don’t drink and smoke. Don’t do much risk taking either. Always been an A student, did things by the book and always carried the tittle of “perfect kid”. I was always told that I’m going to excell and do great in life, get my family out of poverty and become an example to my siblings. All my life I had that, that’s what was expected of me and I guess I did alright given the circumstances. I was always told what to do. I never allowed myself to make mistakes because I didn’t want to hurt anyone.
For a long time I did what was expected of me and…
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The Pursuit of Unhappiness
happiness, illusion, pursuit of happiness, self-deceit
Sometimes it occurs to me that the real issue in most, perhaps all, of my disappointments is a misinterpretation of what life is about. More specifically, about what my life is about.
God’s plan for me is not about my gratification, my achievement or my happiness; it is about bringing people to salvation. It is about advancing the gospel and building up the body of Christ, preparing and equipping us for good works. It is also about preparing us for eternity, bringing us to the fullness of the image of Christ.
Contrary to one of the illusions neatly tucked away into our Declaration of Independence, happiness is not something obtained through pursuit. It is a by-product, not a goal. The more deliberately we focus on our own happiness, the more elusive it will be. It is gained through surrender, not through overwhelming force. It is a choice, not an accomplishment.
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Nostalgia and City Lights
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Funny Health 