How often do I hurry to get to where I think I want to be and trample on the beauty of the moment?

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We can’t do anything perfectly, but if we could be more aware of “now”, then “where” and “when” would become less important. For me, in the moment, it seems I have everything I need. The goals I set for myself can only be met by the many little decisions I make each day. I tend to be a worrier, but I think this change in thinking will lessen my worry habit. Worry can make me trample the wildflowers while I obsess, plan and embrace anxiety and I need to remember that dead flowers aren’t very pretty.
https://agingwrinklesandwondersdot.com/2021/07/14/youre-already-there

Spending most of my time alone and investing into hobbies that made me happy helped me stop over-planning for a future I ultimately can’t control

Keywords: brownsville , college , diversity , education , grades , mindfulness , nyc , philosophy , public school , travel , university

Being completely alone made me more mindful of how I was spending my time day to day, so I chose to explore my interests instead of ruminating over what my life should look like even a year from now. I found a healthy balance between living in the moment and planning. I chose to focus more on short-term plans rather than long-term. I continued to set goals, but let go of expectations and worry. I got comfortable with not knowing and changing direction. I decided that I want to be as present as possible because I love life too much to live in the past or the future. I just want to make sure I’m content in this moment. And I trust myself. I trust that I’ll figure it out as long as I’m learning about myself and choosing happiness everyday.
https://gsmry.blog/2020/06/26/its-not-that-serious

I am getting out of pause and back on track

Keywords: bipolar disorder , change , emotions , introspection , life

Sometimes I want to be sweet, sometimes I want to have claws. And yet sometimes I wish to feel nothing at all. I go back and forth on how to present myself to the world, or whoever I come across in real life or by internet, but it is hard. It is hard because I have Bipolar Disorder which I do take medicine for, but one moment I could feel vindicated by my wrath and after some time, I can feel remorse for having such sharp tongue or words. I have been like this for as long as I can remember, even before my diagnosis.
http://sarahmixup.com/2020/06/16/with-the-wind