Spending most of my time alone and investing into hobbies that made me happy helped me stop over-planning for a future I ultimately can’t control

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Being completely alone made me more mindful of how I was spending my time day to day, so I chose to explore my interests instead of ruminating over what my life should look like even a year from now. I found a healthy balance between living in the moment and planning. I chose to focus more on short-term plans rather than long-term. I continued to set goals, but let go of expectations and worry. I got comfortable with not knowing and changing direction. I decided that I want to be as present as possible because I love life too much to live in the past or the future. I just want to make sure I’m content in this moment. And I trust myself. I trust that I’ll figure it out as long as I’m learning about myself and choosing happiness everyday.

https://gsmry.blog/2020/06/26/its-not-that-serious

Public Transport Panic

Mental Health

Ems Tells

On September 12th, 2017, a woman was rude to me on public transport. Five months later, I’m still thinking about it – this is the reality of anxiety sufferers.
When I take the train at peak times, I often choose not to take a seat, even though the train is relatively empty where I get on. I am afraid I won’t be able to get off at my stop if I don’t stand near the door. However, on this occasion – I was attending a workshop at an alternate venue – I did decide to take a seat.
Everyone’s experience of anxiety is different – but this is my experience. Before I get on the train, I purchase a ticket. This will minimise the stress of an encounter with the ticket person. I read the scrolling text on the platform at least three times, double and triple check I am…

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You’re blocked

happiness, personal effectiveness, resilience

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One of my many talents is being able to project negatively into the future and predict calamity and doom.  Although it is something, I am good at, it is not good for my wellbeing and resilience.  And oftent I find myself worrying about something that will never happen.  I am aware that people say ‘plan for the worst and hope for the best’, however I think we can struggle with the later.  

The trouble is worrying is a complete waste of time and energy because we worry about something that may never happen and then if it doeswe worry again.  We could half the time spent worrying by just waiting to see if we actually need to.  When you get right down to it, it is inefficient and we could use the time more wisely. 

So I have decided…

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