Public Transport Panic

Mental Health

Ems Tells

On September 12th, 2017, a woman was rude to me on public transport. Five months later, I’m still thinking about it – this is the reality of anxiety sufferers.
When I take the train at peak times, I often choose not to take a seat, even though the train is relatively empty where I get on. I am afraid I won’t be able to get off at my stop if I don’t stand near the door. However, on this occasion – I was attending a workshop at an alternate venue – I did decide to take a seat.
Everyone’s experience of anxiety is different – but this is my experience. Before I get on the train, I purchase a ticket. This will minimise the stress of an encounter with the ticket person. I read the scrolling text on the platform at least three times, double and triple check I am…

View original post 518 more words

Advertisements

You’re blocked

happiness, personal effectiveness, resilience

ctraceyb

One of my many talents is being able to project negatively into the future and predict calamity and doom.  Although it is something, I am good at, it is not good for my wellbeing and resilience.  And oftent I find myself worrying about something that will never happen.  I am aware that people say ‘plan for the worst and hope for the best’, however I think we can struggle with the later.  

The trouble is worrying is a complete waste of time and energy because we worry about something that may never happen and then if it doeswe worry again.  We could half the time spent worrying by just waiting to see if we actually need to.  When you get right down to it, it is inefficient and we could use the time more wisely. 

So I have decided…

View original post 162 more words

run away with me

happiness, happy, life, love, negativity, reflections, sad, sadness, worry, writing

into the pensieve

the cause of escapism is simple: a person who’s seeking solace during times of distress. recently, i find myself constantly evading those demeaning thoughts regarding results day — i’ve been going out, helping out with house chores, watching movies, basically filling my day with tasks so that i won’t have time to myself. my results has always been one of my off-limit topics, as discussing or even simply thinking about it only serves to tear me down and make me feel inadequate. i don’t like (or rather, hate) feeling this way because i begin isolating myself from the ones who care about me the most and i end up inadvertently hurting them. to make matters worse, i’ve never been outstanding in any way, so anything that’s academic-related is rife with uncertainty. i really wish i was as smart as the people around me so that i’d worry a little less…

View original post 545 more words